2005年，我高中毕业，奶奶送给我人生第一台数码相机，在那之后的十年时间里，相机里大都是家人。那段时间似乎也是对记录最精心的日子，出门不带着相机可能就像现在不带手机一样，放心不下。就这样，拍了好多照片，其中奶奶是我的主角。特别是奶奶2012年检查出癌症以后，相机成为了我陪伴着奶奶的中介：让我得以略微旁观一些以直视她越来越微弱的生命，也让我在后来开始变得例行公事和漫不经心的陪伴中，经由镜头去多一些感同身受。我在想，可能我经由相机的在场对奶奶是有意义的，但是照片仅对还活在这个世界上的我们有意义。它们在这本册子里，拼凑成了我对她的一部分记忆，让我的想念在虚空中有暂时的、实在的落脚处。谢谢奶奶送我的相机。

2018年12月 北京

周娜，驻北京，2017年获马格基金会社会公正奖学金，2018年获得阿比盖尔科恩纪实摄影奖学金。个人网站：www.zhounaphoto.com

In 2005, I graduated from high school, my grandmother gave me my first digital camera as a gift. After that, most of the photos I took were my family members. Consider the quantity of photos I took at that ten years, It would be the most passinate days to recording. Going out without a camera would be very anxious for me. Among that amount of photos, my grandmother is my protagonist. After grandma  got cancer in 2012, the camera became the way of my companion. Allowing me to be more patient and empathy, and sometimes if needed, help me took a more objective perspective. I am thinking，it is meaningful for my grandmother that my presence through the camera, but the photos only make sense for us who still live in this world. In this book, they are pieced together into a part of my memory for her, so that my miss has a temporary, real place to settle in the void. Thank you for giving me the camera and love, Grandma.

December 2018 Beijing

Zhou Na is a photographer based in Beijing. She was chosen as one of nine fellows of Magnum Foundation’s Photography and Social Justice Program in2017. And Abigail Cohen Fellowship in Documentary Photography in 2018.  

www.zhounaphoto.com